“You shall have no other gods before Me.
You shall not make for yourself a carved image – any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth; you shall not bow down to them nor serve them. For I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God…”
Very often I pray, “Lord, tell me what to do and I’ll do it. I just want to do your will.” It wasn’t until this week that I realized I spent more time trying to figure out what to do and less time hearing and learning from Him. I desired the feeling of accomplishment more than Peace and Joy from resting in His Presence. I desired accolades and approval from others rather than the love and approval of the Father. Doing the right things had become an idol to me.
Delight yourself also in the Lord,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord,
Trust also in Him,
And He shall bring it to pass.
He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light,
And your justice as the noonday.
In response to this revelation, I have intentionally spent time in communion with my Creator God – being still and seeking Him just to know Him better. I am more aware that I serve and love a God who desires me – so much that He is jealous for my time and affections.
When I think about that – that He wants me, knowing the person I am, the things I have done, said and thought – I can’t help but want to understand why.
“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life.”
“It’s love,” He whispers.
There’s nothing I can do, nothing I can check off my checklist, that can make me deserving of His sacrifice – the pain, the suffering and the shame. As I envision my Jesus hanging in agony caused by the pain in His physical body and separation from the Father, I can’t help but crumple to my knees with tears in my eyes. I realize I’m so unworthy.
For what is man that You are mindful of him,
And the son of man that you visit him?
For you have made him a little lower than the angels
And You have crowned him with glory and honor.
I don’t have to be afraid of not meeting the expectations of God because, honestly, I have already missed the mark.
Therefore no one will be declared righteous in God’s sight by the works of the law; rather, through the law we become conscious of sin…
…for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.
Romans 3:20, 23
The blood Jesus shed for my sins has placed me in right standing with God. I can stand in His Presence without fear. I can come to Him in all my mess and distress. I can cry and laugh, sing and dance. I can experience the joy of a life lived in Him. Most importantly, I can rest, assured of my future – eternity in heaven with Him.
“…In quietness and trust is your strength…”